Redemption!!

Its a brand new day....the hols have really done me some good. I feel like how i felt on the first day of the year...recharged, rejuvenated, motivation levels are high and i dont give a rat's ass about anything. So, today marks the start of Lent- Ash Wednesday, the month (or 40 days to be exact) when Christians, Catholics to be more specific, take a guilt trip of the year. It's a time when we look back at the past year and ask for forgiveness. Yeah rite! like that's gonna come easy. For me, it's just another excuse for me to feel good about myself. And i don't think i'm alone in this. All of us seek some sort of redemption once in a while and for us (Catholics) it comes in the form of Lent. So is this really what Lent means? If my Cathecism (Sunday school) teacher heard me say the above, i would be so doomed!! Lent is actually suppose to open a path to goodness, a time when we try to turn over a new leaf. After Lent we are supposed to continue being good...easier said than done. i usually give up eating meat during Lent. So far it has worked. Tried giving up ciggies last year, it lasted 2 weeks till the devil (in the form of a friend) blinded me and caused me to fall! Ok so i'll stop with the drama now. This year, i'm gonna be a 'vegetable' (insiders joke) and try to give up ciggies again. I think my self-control is controlled by my high level of pride. which in fact is something i should really start managing. The more i tell the people around me i dont do something or i dont like something, the more i am able to sustain my decisions, cos i dont want other people to think im weak by failing. Sort of like having to eat my own words. A friend of mine asked me to give up something that gives me pleasure; like sex....i would if i could but as far as my sex life is concerned, im already on the road to celibacy =( so it would be cheating to give up something u don't even have in the first place rite?

*sigh...so sad, so sad....
Also during Lent, we sing the most depressing songs in church. Why does it have to be so sad? I mean we are celebrating Christianity so shouldnt we be glad?

"Crucified, laid behind a stone....,
You lived to die, rejected and alone,
Like a rose, trampled on the ground....
You took the fall and thought of me
Above All...."

So here's to Lent - celibacy, become a herbivor and try to save my lungs while i can....

Btw another good thing that comes from Lent is i always lose weight lets hope this year is the same. hehehe

Cheers