Ladi Ladi Da

i know i've not posted anything since i left for Singapore. Tried to from my hotel room but unfortunately the connection was real slow and i just had enough time to check my emails and then hit the sack. So...Singapore was fun, had a real good time but it was not all play, we had to work and it was pretty challenging stuff. the first day was fun, we had team building activities and we laughed till we almost cried. we were so beat by the end of the day that we just went for a drink and hit the sack. the next day we had to prepare for many, many presentations. in fact the whole last 2 days were basically presentations and feedback.

Didn't do much shopping but im no shopaholic anyways and with the exchange rate...no thanks! i did get some stuff from the airport though, bought this special limited edition Absolut Vodka which was in a black bottle with the alcohol content at 50% (whoa Nelly!!). havent opened it yet. will save it for some special occasion.

I did meet up with G on Friday and him being Mr. Punctuality promised to arrive at 8pm which turned out to be 1130 pm. Thank God i followed my colleagues for dinner and drinks instead. We din go to far away from the hotel so it was convenient enough for me to run back in case he was on time (Yeah rite! like thats ever gonna happen =P) so anyways we go back to his sis' (Gr)place. remember i was hoping to surprise her but thanks to G who has a mouth as wide as the freakin Gaza strip spoiled the surprise. so the whole family was waiting for me to arrive and the worst part was her place was so close to the hotel whr i was staying.

so i chilled with them for a while and then his bro R (who loves to get on my case and has not changed over the past 10 yrs) wanted to go for a drink. So the 3 of us went to the nearby restaurant and had supper. Btw the food sux big time in this country. not that thrs anythg exotic but the replica of foods back home which i find here...horrible!! bland, no taste, no flavor blech!!!

we slept at 4am that day. Woke up the next day and took Gr's daughter for a kiddie play. she's quite entertaining this young one. talks a lot and is intelligent. Gr's baby boy is absolutely gorgeous. He is an angel. so sweet and adorable...sigh* ok this is freaking me out sounds like my maternal clock is ticking blech!!!

We lepaked (hung out) at Gr's kiddie gym the whole day and went to church. ok so it was more like i was forced to go to church. but i went to appease my godmother (G's mom). later at nite G, r and i went to Clark Quay for drinks, met up with my colleagues thr and just hung out. the next day had to go to church again and then G cooked for me - chicken sambal yummy! that was one of the most satisfying meals i had over thr. and in case ur wondering, yes i skipped vegetarian the few days that i was thr. now im back on the veggie boat! came home the next day was so beat. but had to fetch my mum and sis from my aunts place and drive home all the way. God i was so tired i couldnt kepe my eyes open but duty calls (and my family thinks im selfish!) the best part of this whole trip was an email i received on thursday nite. Remember my friend who was pissed off with me? well i was ready to end the whole thing and sent him an email the friday before leavin to Singapore to say so. but he sent me an email, in short he came back.... knew he couldnt stay long wihtout me hehehe....

So work is up to my ears and i thk i dont have a life anymore but other than that life's good!!! =)

Yippee yay!!!

Yay!I'm off to Singapore tomorrow. I'm actually goin for a development program and training. But i'm more excited about meeting some really good friends over there. She does not know i'm goin. i told her brother and he has made the necessary plans to make sure its a surprise. Just hope he doesn't JK as always....=)

but its not a holiday as i was hoping. its more work. but who cares!!! im gonna have fun. cant wait to go. i need the break...hopefully i get to update my blog when im over there. or else i can only get back to blogging next monday wen i get back to the office.

love to all...MUACKS!!!

I'm back!!!

it's been ages since i posted anything but have been up to my ears with work. Work just keeps pouring in. it's good in a way cos it takes my mind off all things depressing. having said that, i still don't like the idea of doing work which requires a lot of attention to detail. i'm a big picture person, conceptualising is one of my strengths. i hate the idea of going thru stacks of data, checking and re-checking minute stuff. it annoys me and it deadens my brain. i want to think, i mean really think. Give my opinions, share ideas, exchange thoughts. i find this more interesting but yet i am asked to do these crappy stuff. to say they dont know is not true cos, the whole office knows im not a detail-oriented person, by nature. so i am compared to another co-worker who likes this kind of shitty stuff. unfortunately for me, my whole team loves detail and are naturally inclined this way. The other big picture folk are in other teams, so sometimes i feel that they appreciate my work more than my own team. the worst part is they try to make me like themselves and it's 3 against 1. im judged unfairly by the work that i do which does nothing for my strengths but rather is a learning process towards improving my weaknesses. so...the story of my life. Gotta go. will continue later....trying to be optimistic here....=)

Sleepless in Kay-Hell (K.L.)!!!

i woke up today and thought "Oh God i need more sleep!!" i'm having trouble sleeping again. i go to bed exhausted, i close my eyes and wait for sleep to come but it only grazes me, sweeping gently across my being. i float in and out of slumberland hoping that i would go to the most secret corner of my soul where dreams are made (my subconscious mind), where my body is rested, preparing me for the next day. But i am interrupted by the sound of the tv in the living room, a child squealing downstairs aaarrrgh!!!!! i'm a lite sleeper and any little sound can keep me up all nite. God help me if i sleep next to a person who snores. That's why i welcome sleep wen i have too much to drink. i can sleep anywhere even with a snorer bellowing next to me. Yes, bellowing!!! =)

So back to yesterday, yes, i was exhausted but could not fall asleep, i mean i did sleep but it was not the deep sleep that makes you feel refreshed wen u awake. Instead, this kind of sleep makes you crave more sleep. i'm feeling a little light-headed from my sleep deprivation.so excuse me if i sound like a crazed person this morning.

I was asked to take sleeping pills by my co-workers. i think it's because wen i am sleep deprived i turn into a total bitch. Ok, ok a Mega bitch. i can't help it. Sue says it's like "dancing with death" wen i morph into a sleepless monster. Jokes aside, frens have given me meditation leaflets, relaxation and breathing techniques, yoga (ok its the same thing), chamomile tea bags, and wen all fails, a group of colleagues prayed for me =). THAT'S how bitchy i become, i need prayers. hehehe.

i went online yesterday trying to figure out something to do and came across one of these sites where you take an online test to gauge certain stuff about yourself. i was actually doing research on Emotional intelligence and you know one can get lost in the throes of information on the web. so i thought heck why not give it a shot. it was a depression test. Fine! i'm not depressed so why not.

So, bla, bla, bla.....

Did you have weeping spells in the last couple of weeks? uh...yes!,

Did you have images and thoughts of death or suicide in the last couple of weeks? uh...not suicide but death...yes!

Do you feel like you are not getting enough support from friends or family?

Do i feel like the whole world is against me? uh..yes!

Have you lost interest in activities or things that normally interest you? Hell yeah!!!

Then came the results....APPARENTLY i'm suffering from major depression. Yeah rite!!! hahaha.

But that does explain some of the stuff i've been experiencing. Bursting into tears for no apparent reason, venting my anger on the wrong people, highly irritable, insomnia, no interest in hanging out. i have to force myself to go out, and yet i don't want to go home. Lost excitement for anything....*sigh. AND it did last for about 2 weeks plus. There are good days and bad days though. Some days i don't give a flying f**k about anything then there are days wen the whole world is topsy turvy.

I think it's due to lack of sleep. Will have to go see the doctor sometime soon....*YAWN.....