Karma of a heartbreaker....

The words of Akon keep goin through my mind these few days (since Friday to be exact)

"Lonely...I'm Mr. Lonely,

I don't have nobody for my own..." etc etc....

Why? Well let's see, the guy i dumped has finally moved on after bugging my life for so many months. i bump into him and the whole gang (who are/were my frens too) at my fav hang out place last friday. at first i saw some unfamilliar faces who were giving me killer stares which i ignored (AT FIRST). then i say hi to a fren, one of my actual frens and she just gives a little wave with her hand.while Sh comes over and gives me a hug. Sh is my ex's fren and she is more warm towards me. so anyways i say hi to everybody else and rejoin my frens at a separate table well away from them. unfortunately they are facing the dance floor and me love to boogy so i go ahead with one of my gf's and hit the floor. 'He' is there with the little skank who was gave me the cock stare earlier. i buat bodoh and continue dancing with my fren. then we head back to my table. my frens wanted to leave cos they were tired, i was too. but Jc asked me to stay back and it din take much to make me stay. then i meet another fren who was there. it so happens that this guy who has the hots for my dear J is also good looking and a good dancer. so we hit the dance floor and i have this idiotic look on my face from trying not to puke watching those 2 slobber each other on the dance floor. (Yes i'm bitter so fuck u!) the 'dancer', lets call him Sl for Salsa is kind enough to play along and try to take the piss out of 'him'. so we dance. and the skank kept looking in our direction. we were overdoing it naturally but i din give a fuck!. it felt so shitty considering i was the one who dumped him and he's actually moved on while i'm fucking single as a dog's tail. ok dat didn't make sense but who gives a shit!. Forgive me if i'm BITTER and sound like a virgin spinster. i can't help it!. You can stop reading now if you want to. so anyways, we dance and dance and i cant help laughing at this dude. he's funny and a real gentleman (just like i keep telling u J). something worth mentioning considering the male species is made up of jerks and assholes all rolled into one. There are only a handful of males who do not conform to the norms and societal mores of being a man. they are the rare, endangered kind. (yes, B u r part of the endangered species). so Sl and i continue dancing with the hopes of making 'him' as irritated as i was. in retrospect it was such a stupid childish thing to do, but wen one's pissed, one does not give a f**king rat's ass! then came the clincher. a slow tune came on

"The nite's are lonely,, the days are so sad, and,

i just keep thinking about the love that we had,

and i'm missing you,

and nobody knows it but me..."

So Sl says, ok this is it. he twirls me round and round as part of the show. if i wasnt so pissed and upset i would be rolling on the floor with laughter. but the pain....gosh was like a stab in the heart. i caught 'him' staring stonily at us for a second and 'he' did not look away wen my eyes met his. blech! it was the most yucky feeling in the world. being the single one! it also doesn't help wen the person u care most about is in a world of his own...sigh* but i guess for all the shitty things i have done....this is 'karma' kicking me in the butt!

'he' leaves soon after with the skank, and i go back to my place....my whole weekend was kinda spoiled. but thank god i was bz, my office work and family commitments kept me somewhat sane.