Returned to Sender...

I haven't posted anything in a while as usual. But I just had to use the office hours to post this. This is a tribute to a dearly departed friend of mine. She was taken away from us on the 6th of January 2008 at around 5am. She was hit by a speeding car which after hitting her dragged her for about 100m before hitting the brakes. At which juncture she fell off the car and hit her head on the road. That was the COD. My dear friend whom I have known since the age of 11 was a gorgeous, beautiful person. She had a heart made of pure gold and was always quick to lend a hand. One of the most popular girl both in primary and secondary school, SZ never looked down on anyone from a material perspective. Her humbleness won her many hearts and she was never in need of friends. Her parents are the same and it broke my heart to have to see them suffer that much. We shared quite a few ups and downs together. I left my frens, SZ included quite soon wen i moved to another state. But my dear frenz including SZ never let me go. They travelled across states to see me, they kept in touch via phone and letters (before the popularity of emails), cards and pictures. SZ was also very diligent at keeping the friendship alive. My greatest regret is not reciprocating as much. I always found it less hurtful to stay away till the friendship died down than to keep in touch and lose the people i love. That didn't help for although our friendship never died down completely, it never was the same as it was before. YET it still hurt so bad when i received the news. I was at work and did not want to tell anyone at first but just kept running to the washroom to cry. My boss saw my face wen i went for a ciggie break and asked what happened. I told her and she immediately sent me home. I went to a mutual friend's home. A gal whom i know since the age of 12. We comforted each other and went to SZ's house. I could not bring myself to look at her. I wanted to remember her the way she was before, not the way she was that day. I could not even say her 'body' i could not. I never lost a friend like this. Not one who was so close. We all practically grew up together, our parents were friends, we were really like sisters. We never had any qualms about telling each other how we felt. We shared information about our boyfriends, we teased each others boyfriends but we knew we would stand up for each other if it came down to it. We laughed, we cried and today we cry for her. She was always the best dressed among us and yesterday we were laughing thinking about how she was probably looking down at us and cursing her for not dressing up to come see her. =) But knowing her, it wouldn't have mattered. She will be missed dearly by all who knew her. Me included. Rest in Peace my dear....and don't you be raising hell in heaven!

SZ's passing on has taught me one thing, a few things actually. Life is too short to be taken for granted. We need to appreciate the people we love; family and friends and not leave enemies behind. Do at least one good deed a day. Forgive your enemies, heck love them if you can. It will only irritate them further. =)

Love ya SZ....