Shopping...

9 Dec 2007 (Sunday)

Met up with my uni besties for lunch at Chilli's @ BSC. As usual we had fun. To quote lucillus 'We were carnivores'! Let the pics speak for themselves.

Before...the gorgeous presentation...

During....yummy...

After....burp*

And a nice cold Corona to wash it all down....

After that we were like pythons just waiting to curl up and hibernate. But we decided to burn off some of the calories and take a walk around BSC. I also needed to get pressies for so many peeps. So decided that this would be a good time. Nothing much in BSC that I could purchase...too expensivelah and nothing interesting. Was so tempted to buy myself this Spongebob Squarepants square tin which costs RM75. But i decided not to, this time. In the end I got my cousin a body shop gift set. Oh yah lucillus has a new car, so S and i got him to drive us around instead. Cool car, something I wanted to get myself but meant i would have to give up my current lifestyle. I'll stick with my baby for now thank you.
After walking around a bit we decided to go to The Curve. Lucillus and I got some 'skin food'. Then we headed to the bazaar/flea market. I saw a pair of shoes and fell in love with them. Immediately bought them. Sigh* shoooooes. Then S and I bought a pair of tacky sunnies each hehe. Nicole Ritchielah konon. =)

Walked around for a bit then decided to head home. Was a good outing. Excited about my shoes...."Hey i put my new shoes on and everything's gonna be alright...."

Tagged by poopy fren

Okay...my sick and twisted fren has tagged me. I am not going to enjoy doing this but in the spirit of fellow bloggers and the fact that he could have come up with worse, i will try to be as poopy as he is...BUT i will save the visuals.

Things To Do While in Pooping Mode” by Lucillus The New Age Poop Guru

The Dropped-Down Pants.

This depends on the situationlah. If one is in pants then its a drop down. If you are stuck in one of those toilets which qualify for Ripley's believe it or not (cos of the fact that there are UFO's [unidentified FLOATING objects] surrounding you), then you might want to roll up the legs of your pants to your knees and then do the half sit while holding on to your pants, at the same time praying that you can maintain the balancing act. Sigh* if you're wearing a skirt, then it's not drop down, it's pull up (drop down panties till knee level). With one end under your chin, your forearms will have to hold on to the bunched up material as you again perform the half-sit act. If its in the comfort of your own home then most likely I would be in shorts which saves me the trouble of the darn balancing act.

This is the most disgusting and lame excuse for a toilet.

The Ceiling.

Due the fact that I have to always maintain the balancing act there's no chance of looking up at the ceiling. But i have this thing about looking up at the ceiling anyway or even at the top of the door especially when alone in public toilets. Why? I'm scared of what might be there. I've heard of horror stories where people look up at the gap at the top of the door and see some ghost or pontianak sitting there although I never figured out why such a mobile creature would ACTUALLY choose to be in a stinky poo place when it can be anywhere else it wishes to. So yeah I rarely look up. Even at home, i just look at my feet or the floor. 'Nuf said

The small top window.

This....like i said i don't look up that often to notice things like things. Okay i notice it but it has no impact to me. The best reason i can think of is just for ventilation purposes. Can you imagine being stuck in a toilet with a potpourri of fragrances courtesy of the 100 odd people who just expelled stuff from their guts? Phew! There would be a risk of walking out of the toilet smelling LIKE the toilet. Eeeeewwwww! You would be a walking eau de TOILET! Or it's just to make lives of pervie peeping toms easier.

The low end of the cubicle.

This is the area I am most familliar with. The gap is good for watching if anyone is in the next cubicle. And yes, in the toilets at my work place you sometimes can get a glimpse of your neighbour's foot. So i take extra precaution to make sure my feet are kept in the middle.

There are lots of other things related to toilet manners. You might want to add these to your book Lucillus...

1) Do majority of people wash their hands?

2) Do you flush before you pull up your pants or after?

3) What is the most disgusting act to take place at the sink?

Ms. S and I have some stories of the toilets at Uni. Remember how we used to sneak out of class to the toilets to have a fag? We used to use the disabled-friendly toilet because it was spacious. the best part was how we would stop talking everytime we heard the main door open. Once we thought the cleaners came in to wash the toilets and we kinda freaked out. We thought about the look they would have on their faces if we walked out of the cubicle together. hehehe

So there you go my sick fren. I'm not going to tag anyone else just because very few people have access to my blog.

Luxurious life....

Last Monday-
I fell sick.

Last Tuesday-

Was stuck in the assessment center feeling like i could die

Last Wednesday-

Took MC. But i went out at night because it was B's birthday and his colleagues were taking him to this new place (for us at least). So J and I tagged along. Unfortunately, we never really made it to the dance floor cos J realised (just as we found a table) that she left her phone in the car (or so we thought). So she and I went back to get it. But, apparently it was lost. That really put her off. I mean all the numbers and pictures were all in the phone. Sigh* so we decided to head home and fetch B later. On the way home, L calls and he's at W. J wanted to see him so we went there. Sl and his frens were there too. We just hung out and laughed and laughed as usual. Sl and L were trying to make J laugh and were seriously making fools out of themselves just so she would laugh. And it worked. So sweetlah they. Anyway we lepaked till it was time to go home. By then it was raining so heavily that half the place was wet and we were getting wet from the sprays. J had this brilliant idea of dancing in the rain but i was sick and no i wouldn't have done it anyway. Not there at least. B joins us as we were about to leave the place.We have supper then head home to J's place.

Last Thursday-

We go for lunch and then hang out at IKEA for a bit. I saw this really cute bedside table which I so want to get. But me being quite thrifty I decided to sleep on the idea for a bit. Head off to J's place and I leave for my aunty's place. Today was the day we were picking the names for our Christmas get-together this year. Every year our family (immediate and extended maternal family) draw names for the gift exchange. This brilliant idea was the brainchild of my aunt who is the world's best event manager. It was beginning to be a financial burden on us due to the ever expanding family of ours. Well I'm exaggerating but for the young un's it is a burden. And not that they mention itlah but since we have started working, it's almost expected that we should get them pressies. So I'm all for this idea of one gift exchange. But by default we all have to get gifts for my nephew, niece and my youngest sister.

So anyways, I'm there and we chill for a bit. Just hanging around doing nothing. My niece is absolutely adorable so I was entertaining her. Then of course the ever famous question of who I'm dating and when I will be getting hitched came up. My ex ex boyfriend's name was brought up of course. I finally let them have it.

Me: "He's got a girlfriend alreadylah..."

Aunty 1: "What? The bloody bugger. Wait till I see him next."

Me: "It's about time actually."

Aunty 2: "Too much ah he?"

Me: [Confused]

Aunty 2: "Never mind girl, I'm praying for you everyday that you will find a nice man who will look after you well."

Me: "Why? You don't want me to remain happy is it?" [giggles]

Aunty 2: "Nolah cannot say like that. You WILL find someone."

Me: sigh* "Not lookinglah...too busy to spend time with myself."

After dinner we left for home.

Last Friday-

Still felt too crappy to go to work so I just rested at home. My mum and sis' went back to my aunty's place. I rested the whole day. So nice, I had the whole house to myself.

Last Saturday-

Went in to the office cos i needed to finish some stuff. My fren R was in town and he won a stay in a 5-star hotel. It was a suite. So four of us - R, J, Jc and moi was spending the nite there. We were a bit like jakuns at firstlah cos' the suite just looked so posh. We began taking pictures as usual. Jc brought 12 big bottles of beer and there we had a bottle of Grant's courtesy of B who finally did not show up. We began drinking early...happy hourlah konon. They went and had a swim. I sat and watched cos it was the time of the month. After that we got ready for dinner and walked across the street to an Indian restaurant cos we felt like having 'Indian'. It almost felt as if we were somewhere else and not in the middle of KL. After dinner we played the drinking game and did some dance routines. We actually had so much fun. Was damn nicelah.

Last Sunday-

Jc and R went for the breakfast while J and I slept in. We woke up after their breakfast and watched 'Knocked up'. Then we got ready to leave the hotel. Sigh* one nite of luxury....the room cost RM 2369 a nite. So it really was almost like a once in a lifetime thing. The most expensive hotel room I have stayed in cost RM 650 and that was for work purposes.

Anyways we said goodbye to our room and headed over to get J's phone. Had lunch and went over to Jc's house. She is going to move to a new place soon. The house was really nice. It was huge and they got it for a good price. After that we went back to J's place and L was there. We got ready and went for dinner. I as usual stayed back. Had A&W for dinner and came back to J's place to watch Russell Peters. L and I were laughing like idiots. hehehe.

So that was the fabulous weekend I had although for most parts I felt quick crappy. My running nose and cough were quite bad.

Today I have a bad toothache. Took some meds from J. Met her for a bit when I went for client meeting.

Got to get back to worklah....Sigh* been staying till very late these few days. Want to head home early today.

The Bedroom where 4 of us bunked in

The fantastic bathroom

The view from our room

Guess whose feet? =)

Till then....ciao the mow

waaaa......im still here

Nyeh nyeh nyeh.....damn long rite since i posted any crap. Kinda forgot i had a blog. Gone back to putting pen to paper. Still safer and personal. Can't really EXPRESS feelings here without some moron bitching about it. but i guess each one to his own. so short updates. it's after raya, had a great time meeting up with frens. These are my uni besties. We had our traditional buka puasa at the same seafood place, eating the same food (plus crabs this time; which Y usually passes on to his dates hehe) making the same old lame jokes and just about doing everything as always. This time though there was a difference. We are working adults. Working for over a year, 6 mths at a steady job for one and one sustaining A job from a line of 5 jobs. hehehe.

Before....the scrumptious food

After......we were done! After I licked my forearm clean.....=)

We walked around pavillion cos my fren S who is actually a princess born to commoners NEEDED her fix of J.Co doughnuts. Needed them pretty much as a junkie would need his fix. hehehe We waited for about half an hour for those doughnuts which thank the gods in heaven was good. Not much to say about pavillion. all the hype but the dudes that hang out there pretty much look the same as those which loiter outside Kota Raya on public holidays. Yeah u heard me. The dazzle of the place can't override that fact. And the freaking signages in that place. Don't trust the directory at this place, follow your instinct, it'll get you to your destination quicker. We ended up seeking help from this pak guard who was rabun and thanks to Y who didn't fail to mention it to him. What did you say again? "Dah rabun pun nak tolong?" Talk about tactless...all in your waistlah that's why (insider's joke) hehehe. It was a great outing. Can't wait to go out again with them soon. But this week has been pretty hectic and will be hell till January.

Visited my form 6 frens for Raya. It was almost like a reunion. Nothing much had changed i was still the only female among the bunch of dicks cos the rest of the gals were coming later. Left early too. This month quite brokelah. Had to go to the land of the kiasu pandis so bit tightlah. The rest of the holiday saw me chilling at home with a book. Something i haven't done since i started work. The best part was i had the whole house to myself. the rest of the familia were spending two days at my aunt's place. Great holiday but came to work on Tuesday feeling as if i party-ed away the previous nite. it was the onset of my migraine. But after downing a few painkillers i felt much better. The best part about coming to work these few days is the fact that there were fewer cars on the road. It was bliss driving to and from work. Wish it was like that everyday.
What else. Oh yeah i just got told that i will be receiving a bonus after all cos i was unfairly judged (from my 360 feedback) i guess it was my fault for directing my 360 to morons. The more senior managers thought i deserved a bonus and a good raise (for having high potential) and disregarded the feedback thingy. in your face you freaking weirdos! hehehe. so glad. I can finally get that pair of shoes I've been dying for. those who have been reading my blog know that i have been battling with the different mindsets of these weirdos who are so process-driven they won't be able to fart without consulting a manual of some sort. So now it's partly settled. The other big bosses see the potential in me and do not make me feel bad about my areas of development but rather help me appreciate and leverage off my strengths. The Asian culture is the driving factor behind this. You were considered never good enough in school unless you were like those kiasu, ass-kissing nerds. But fuck all that has changed now. i have a new manager who im looking forward to working with. [This is my alter ego speaking] and the gal who i thought was my competition, newsflash, she ain't no competition. will update later......gtg now.

Weekend blast!

I had a fantastic weekend. It's been a long time since i did so many things over a single weekend. Since i have been stuck running training programs throughout July and August I was always too drained to actually chill. This weekend i decided to let my hair down again and it did wonders (to my soul) hehehe.

So let's see....Friday after work i was initially supposed to meet up with 'J' and 'L'. We were goin shopping . My Uni best fren is getting hitched this weekend and i wanted to get a dress and a pair of shoes. I also made plans with a senior of mine form Uni. We rarely met in Uni but there was this one trip that a few of his friends and mine took wen we were in 2nd year and thats how we became frens. Just recently we started contacting each other again and we decided to meet up on Friday. He works near the training centre. So i met up with him and we chatted and chatted and chatted. We went for dinner and another fren 'Sl' (from previous posts) text messages, inviting me to my favourite hang out place in the whole world (at this point of time).

So i ask 'Jq' if he wanted to come along and he agreed. Well actually i talked him out of ditching his weekly 'pool' game to hang out with us =). J finished work late so there was no time for shopping. We decided to finally meet at 'W'. We chilled to the music which was incidentally great that evening. J and L came a little later. Sl who invited me came 2 hours past schedule. as usual! Jq left soon after Sl and his frens came. I was so happy that day, firstly because i met up with Jq. Secondly i was with my favourite person J, and L was just making me laugh as usual. L's fren also decided to join in the fun that nite. So anyway back to the Sl story. Sl is a great dancer and so is his fren KC. So i usually hang out with these 2. that nite the dancing was really good. not to mention the flirting between Kc and i hehehe. We ended the nite quite late. J, L and his fren left quite early that nite too, so i just hung out with these other 3. We were the last to leave the place as usual. it was good to have laughed so much that day.

Next day i had to take my sister for her tuition class and also pay a visit to my cousin. She gave birth to a healthy baby gal on Friday. We spent quite a bit of time there.

p/s: I'm getting bored with blogging. Let's see, it lasted about 6 months. even during these 6 months i havent been updating properly. let's see how long more it can last. the reason being i have gone back to journal writing. i think i'm more comfortable keeping a journal instead of a blog!

Some funnies...

These are ads taken from shaadi.com - guys searching for brides..
These are actual ads on a matchmakers site. Grammar and spelling errors apparently have no importance in the profile description as everything is straight from the heart!
Disclaimer : I am not responsible if you forget your basic grammar
after reading this.....

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>- Hello To Viewers My Name is Shekhar , I am single i don't have
>female,If anyone want to Marie to me u can visit to my home. I am not
>a good education but i working all field in bangalroe.. if u like me u
>welcome to my heart...when ever u want to meet pls visit my resident
>or send u letter.. Thanks yours Regards Shekhar

>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>i want very simple girl. from brahmin educated family from orissa
>state she is also know about RAMAYAN, GEETA BHAGABATA, and other
>homework
>(Homework?)

>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>Wants a woman who knows me better and can adjust with me forever. she
>may never create any difficulties in my life or her life by which the
>entire life can run smoothly. thank you
>(The principle of running life smoothly was never so easy!)

>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>she should be good looking and should have a service. she Should have
>one brother and one sister. she should be educated.
>(ain't it unique !! 1 brother 1 sister criteria

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>I am a happy-go-lucky kind of person. Enjoys every moments of life. I
>love to make friendship. Because friendship is a first step of love. I
>am looking for my dreamgirl who will love me more than i. Because i
>love myself a lot. If u think that is u then why to late come on
>..........hold my hand forever !!!
>(The dilwale dulhaniya effect)

>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>i am simple boy.I have lot of problem in my life because of my luck
>now i am looking one gal she care me and love me lot lot lot
>(I don't know why but this is one of my favorites)
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>My wife should
>be as 'Shivani' as in Kahani Ghar Ghar Ki and as
>Tanwerr as in KSBKBT......
>(Ok I haven't seen these soaps but I am sure he must be demanding too
>much,ain't he?)

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>i want a girl with no drinks if she wants she can wear jeans in house
>but while stepping out of house she should give respect to our cast
>(by not wearing her jeans? Wat the freak...)

>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>HYE I AM A GOOD LOKING BOY,WHO HAS THE CAPABILITY TO MAKE ANY BODY TO
>LOUGH.I BELIEVE IN GOD AND ACCORDING TO ME FRIENDS ARE THE REAL
>MESSENGER OF GOD. THE 3 THINGS I AM LOOKING FROM A GIRL ,THEY ARE
>1.THEY MUST BELIEVE IN GOD.2. THEY HAVE TO LIKE MY PROFFESION AND THEY
>SHOULD NOT
>GET BORED WITH ME WHEN I WILL TRY TO MAKE THEM LOUGH.
>(all of us are loughing{laughing})

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>whatever she may be but she should feel that she is going to be
>someone bride and she must think of the future life if she is too like
>this she would be called the woman of the lamp
>(I am clueless, I feel so lost. Can anyone tell me what this boy wants)

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>i love my patner i marriage the patner ok i search my patner and i
>love thepatner ok thik hai the patner has a graduate ok
>(I am again clueless but I liked the use of "ok". The person is
>suffering from
>"Ok-syndrome")

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>HI IAM VERY COOL NUATHER OK MY HOBBY IS SEE T.V AND NEWS OK I HAVE 1
>CAR AND 1 BONWL OK MY MOTHER ALSO GOOD OK MY FARUET WORLD IS OK
>(the "ok syndrome" again)

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>I am pran my family history my two brother two sister and
>Father&mother sister complity marred
>(somebody please explain in comments section how to get married
>'completely'?)

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>iam very simpel and hanest. i have three sister one brother and
>parent. iam doing postal sarvice and tailor master my original
>resdence at kalahandi
>diste naw iam staing at rayagada dist.
>(actually what is this guy doing? Postal service or tailor.??)

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>my name is muhamad and i am unmarried. pleaes you marrige me pleaes
>pleaes pleaes pleaes pleaes pleaes pleaes
>(height of desperation! J )

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>Iwant one girl who love me or my mother. she love me heartly or she
>havea frank she's skin colour 'normal'not a black or not a whitey.
>IThink the main think is heart if your heart is beautiful then you are
>beautiful.
>but iam not a handsome guy or not a good looking. but my Mom say that
>Iam a good guy. My father already expired . THE CHOICE IS YOUR.
>bye
>bye.
>(uttama purushan)

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>iam kanan. i do owo businas.one sistar.he was marred.
>(No comments)

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>I AM LITTLE FAIR INDIAN COLOUR. I DON'T HAVE ANY HABIT.
>(maybe the poor guy meant BAD habits)

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>hello i am a good charactarised man. i want to run my life happily.i
>divorced my first wife.her charactor is not good'. i expect the good
>minded and clean habits girl who may be in the same caste or other
>caste accepted ...
>(but credit cards not
>accepted..???)

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>my colour is black,but my heart is white.i like social service
>(Zebra..???)

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>i'm looking out for who lives in bombay, girl simple who trust me lot
>should be roman catholic, LOVE ME ONLY.
>(Now that criterion is a must, isn't it?)

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>to be married on jan-2006. working woman perferable
>(this guy has fixed the marriage date too! But he is yet to find a
>bride.I wish him best of luck on behalf of all of us. I am sure he
>will get one
>soon.)

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>i would like a beautyfull girl. and i do not want her any treasure.
>because girl is the maharani.
>(Now she is going to be a lucky girl! Any takers?)

>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>ssc failed three times and worked with privated ltd company which not
>paying salary at present.
>(Any takers again?)

I rest my case....any wonder they are still not attached??? sigh*

Mother of all IRONIES!

You know, it's funny how we sometimes misinterpret the meaning of irony. Well, let me give u a perfect example of an ironic situation. In fact this is the MOTHER of all ironies...Lots of other stuff has been goin on in my life but none can compare to what i experienced today. And i'm not being dramatic here. U will be as confused as i am by the time you reach the end of this post. Not confused, confused but more of confusion on how to respond to this situation. So where shall i begin...i came to office as usual today and it seemed like any other day i had to work my ass off though the whole first half of today as we had to deliver on our promise to our clients. well it was actually my PM's promise to the clients. we had 2 days to prepare a whole lot of stuff. the meeting today was at 3pm and we were still printing materials at 245pm, so u can imagine the stress levels at this point of time. i even skipped lunch and left to pee only wen it was almost drippin'..ok im exaggerating but thts how rushed i was. anyways, after the storm, and the two buggers were off to the meeting, i take a breather and decide to go collect my road tax. Now the story of my road tax....i have been driving around for the past 2 months with an expired road tax sticker on my windscreen i managed to drive through a police block drunk and i managed to pass through with a smile. hehehe the advantages of being a female...anyways i decide to go pick up my road tax. i leave for about 10 minutes at most. when i come out, i see a piece of paper wedged between the windscreen adn the wiper. oh-oh its a friggin summon for expired road tax! how ironic is that....blech! i have nothing more to say.....shit like this should only happen on Friday the friggin 13th! Damn!!! Now i have 2 unpaid summonses. fishcake!!! the words of Alanis Morisette kept blaring in my head. Yes blaring, and i swear i could hear chuckles in between the sodding lyrics. blech! isn't it ironic? Don't ya think!

Lazy weekend

Had a nice lazy weekend last week. Sent my dearie 'J' to the bus stand last Friday. We went for dinner first at our fav mamak hang out. Funny guy 'L' decides to join us there. it was to surprise 'J' actually. I picked up 'P' along the way and we hung out for a while. Saw Cute guy 'A' there, he was with a fren, and i thought it was Cute Guy 'B'. unfortunately it was some other fren. Damn! Met 'J's mom's fren who was helping me get my road tax and car insurance settled. we took a slow drive to the bus stand, we were early so we decided to bug 'P's life for a bit and interrogate her about the love of her life. =) then it was time for 'J' to leave. So i sent 'P' home and left for home. it was kinda outta the way at 2 other ends but it WAS a Friday nite and i had nothing better to do so what the heck. (yeah quite tragic i know). When i reach home, i find my dearest aunties at my place. i make small talk but i am actually very tired so i hit the sack soon enough. The next day i had to wake up really early to send my sis off to college. She was going up north for her practical training. i come home and try to sleep a bit. supposed to meet my Uni best fren for lunch, we have been postponing this for ages. i thought it's about timelah i meet up with her. We had so much fun during our Uni days, the stuff we did...Gosh.... oh yah which reminds me, that i heard news that one of my fav lecturers gave in a 24 hr notice of resignation. i heard this on Monday (18 June) but i digress.... will get back to this issue in a bit. Just as i find my body awakening to face the day, i get a call from Cute Guy A who asks me to join him for a massage. i got this package last week and i know that he likes these stuff so i got him one. i thought what the hecklah. so i went for the foot reflexology while he went for the body massage. it was sooooo good man. it could be all in my head but it felt amazing so who cares. then i meet my fren and we waste 4 hours of precious time. it felt so good just hanging out and not doing anything or rushing anywhere for once. Hehehe i rmbr those uni days wen we used to lepak for up to 6 hours at the mamak restaurant talking crap and ordering ais kosong. hehehe i even got caught once by my lecturer whose class i skipped to hang out with my frens, (who would have thought that Dr. 'apple dumpling' would pay a visit to the same area) there were no repercussions though thang God!. Sigh* good old days.....

'H' is for Happy =P

Happy...Oh i'm so happy...

Cant believe how happy... (i am)

on my own.....

[to the tune of Akon's Lonely]

I have no idea why Im so happy. I aint complainin tho. Just have no idea where this source of happiness is coming from...woo hoo...im on top of the world. and no...no guy is involved. i guess its the positive vibes i have been absorbing at work. its true u knw, no matter how stressed one is, u should always take the time to have a laugh. Gosh! the euphoria and no im not 'chasing'. just high on life i guess. never felt this good in ages. i have come to terms with myself and all the people who have hurt me and i them. trying to make amends. i have forgiven the 'fren' who went behind my back and stirred the waters between me and my ex. i think that was one of the main things which broke my heart into pieces. i apologised to 'him' (my ex) and it feels so darn good. have another one to apologise to..my dad. waiting for father's day which also happens to be a day before his b'day. so i guess i will pick up the fone, swallow my stupid pride and talk to him. i don't feel angry, bitter, hurt, whatever.... its so good i might even start going back to church soon. hehehe. so i'm not goin to sweat the small stuff...people can do or say what they wantlah. i think nothing can affect me for now...kekeke. 'J' looking forward for our gals nite out tonite....time to chill and pick up some hot guys....CHEERZZZZZZ.........

Karma of a heartbreaker....

The words of Akon keep goin through my mind these few days (since Friday to be exact)

"Lonely...I'm Mr. Lonely,

I don't have nobody for my own..." etc etc....

Why? Well let's see, the guy i dumped has finally moved on after bugging my life for so many months. i bump into him and the whole gang (who are/were my frens too) at my fav hang out place last friday. at first i saw some unfamilliar faces who were giving me killer stares which i ignored (AT FIRST). then i say hi to a fren, one of my actual frens and she just gives a little wave with her hand.while Sh comes over and gives me a hug. Sh is my ex's fren and she is more warm towards me. so anyways i say hi to everybody else and rejoin my frens at a separate table well away from them. unfortunately they are facing the dance floor and me love to boogy so i go ahead with one of my gf's and hit the floor. 'He' is there with the little skank who was gave me the cock stare earlier. i buat bodoh and continue dancing with my fren. then we head back to my table. my frens wanted to leave cos they were tired, i was too. but Jc asked me to stay back and it din take much to make me stay. then i meet another fren who was there. it so happens that this guy who has the hots for my dear J is also good looking and a good dancer. so we hit the dance floor and i have this idiotic look on my face from trying not to puke watching those 2 slobber each other on the dance floor. (Yes i'm bitter so fuck u!) the 'dancer', lets call him Sl for Salsa is kind enough to play along and try to take the piss out of 'him'. so we dance. and the skank kept looking in our direction. we were overdoing it naturally but i din give a fuck!. it felt so shitty considering i was the one who dumped him and he's actually moved on while i'm fucking single as a dog's tail. ok dat didn't make sense but who gives a shit!. Forgive me if i'm BITTER and sound like a virgin spinster. i can't help it!. You can stop reading now if you want to. so anyways, we dance and dance and i cant help laughing at this dude. he's funny and a real gentleman (just like i keep telling u J). something worth mentioning considering the male species is made up of jerks and assholes all rolled into one. There are only a handful of males who do not conform to the norms and societal mores of being a man. they are the rare, endangered kind. (yes, B u r part of the endangered species). so Sl and i continue dancing with the hopes of making 'him' as irritated as i was. in retrospect it was such a stupid childish thing to do, but wen one's pissed, one does not give a f**king rat's ass! then came the clincher. a slow tune came on

"The nite's are lonely,, the days are so sad, and,

i just keep thinking about the love that we had,

and i'm missing you,

and nobody knows it but me..."

So Sl says, ok this is it. he twirls me round and round as part of the show. if i wasnt so pissed and upset i would be rolling on the floor with laughter. but the pain....gosh was like a stab in the heart. i caught 'him' staring stonily at us for a second and 'he' did not look away wen my eyes met his. blech! it was the most yucky feeling in the world. being the single one! it also doesn't help wen the person u care most about is in a world of his own...sigh* but i guess for all the shitty things i have done....this is 'karma' kicking me in the butt!

'he' leaves soon after with the skank, and i go back to my place....my whole weekend was kinda spoiled. but thank god i was bz, my office work and family commitments kept me somewhat sane.

Purposeful life

Have you read the book "Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren? Well i received that book as a birthday gift. i actually asked my colleague what she meant wen she gave me that book. hmmmm she must think i have no purpose in life. but i thought what the heck, just have a read and seelah. the author suggests that you read a chapter a day so that u can really take the time to reflect and ponder on your purpose of life. like Duh! so i began with chapter one....u were put here (on the earth) for a reason. hmm....i felt like one of the characters of Heroes. hehehe. okaaayyy......so wht's my purpose. and up until then i had never really thought about it. wt were u meant to do? do u want to leave the earth without anything to your name. if i die today, would i be proud of what i have accomplished so far? hm..i guess not. i just turned 24 last week and i did think of what i had accomplished so far. which is like nothing. i mean im not complaining but there's nothing i have done so far that makes me feel like i've reached a destination or accomplished a goal. i planned my life as a little kid, around 8 or 9 years of age. my aim was to graduate from university. So my life evolved around that goal. when i finally made it to uni, i was like ok...so what do i do now. and honestly i still havent figured it out. i sometimes feel lost and afloat. like i have no destination or aim whatsoever. now i'm still looking for something to work towards but i have no idea. hmm.....its been a year already since i graduated and even during my studying days i used to think of what to work towards. but let's see what and how i come up with something.

Of torn shorts and snorkelling!!

Where was i? oh yeah so we woke up the next day and made the drive to KT. it was sort of a road trip and it was really cool. im goin to speed through things a little cos i dont think anyone will have the patience to read through the whole thg apart from those who were there.
We made a few pit stops along the way, had breakfast at Hai Peng Coffee Shop and finally arrived at Sutra Beach Resort and it was raining. i cald my fren Y who din answer his fone of course but replied my text message. he's from KT and said he'll try to pop by (yeah rite!!) anyways, we check in and are quite impressed with the room. its clean, comfortable and a stone's throw away from the clean beach, not like PD. so R prepares the chicken for the Barby and the rest of us hang around. They decide to go for a swim, i take a short nap, the stupid Clarinase was making me drowsy. i join them later for a few hits of the volleyball but give up soon due to the red, bruised hands, (yeah, yeah i'm a wimp wen it comes to sports so what!). anyways, we decide to mandi air for a bit so we jump in the sea and get hit by the waves. so cool man! then we head for the pool. while walking to the pool, J tells me "Hey gal looks like there's a hole in your shorts." The stupid pair of cheap shorts which i bought in Ktn. and i feel and realise that there is. but i decide to jump into the pool anyways. the fucking shorts kept tearing more. it was tearing like paper. by the time they (my frens) wanted to leave the pool, there were huge tears in my shorts. and no one else was leaving the pool. so i just stayed in the corner of the pool waiting for the rest of the idiots to get out. it was turning dark and i was shivering from the cold, my skin was shrivelled and yet those fuckers were still in the pool. so my dear fren R gets out of the pool and covers himself with a towel and hands me his short. which i then put on in the pool and finally leave. HAHAHAHA that was actually the highlight of my holiday. hehehe luckily it was people whom i close to or else i would have died of shame. and thang god it was the day before the snorkelling. imagine if it happened wen i was snorkelling.

Anways we have our BBQ and try to sing some songs but everyoe was dead beat. the next day we wake up to watch the sunrise. but it was too dark and foggy to see anything. we have some yucky breakfast and prepare to leave for the snorkelling. we were excited. we take the boat to the Marine Park and get ready to jump in. it took me 20 mins to get used to the snorkelling gear. then wen i finally go under i panic cos of the depth of the water. shit! but after a while, (thanks to dear R who patiently waited by me) i was on my own. and it was so bloody cool. i was actually swimming with the fishies. i never wanted to lift my head out of the water.the only crappy part was that there were too many snorkellers around so we kept bumping into each other. the pandis are kiasu even underwater man, and many of them got return kicks and blows from me. i did accidently kick my dear cousin in the crotch though. it was totally innocent B. =) so yeah we head to another beach after dat but din get the chance to snorkel. we were promised another spot but the water was too choppy. on the way back to the mainland, (in the boat) we were soaked from the strong sea spray. so we reach and splash around in the pool for a bit. then shower and head out for dinner. My fren Y is the Lord of FFK (breaking appointments) so of course he din show up either days. the next day we wake up late and take a slow drive back to Ktn to catch the bus home. it was a rather sad but memorable day. end of the holidays....back to the grind blech!!! the best part though is that wen i get back i'm on a one week break. yippee yay!!!

Here again...

I’ve been away for a bit. It’s been kinda crazy around the office hence my not being able to write. And yes I have been reprimanded for it. Ok since I’m trying to fit in tons of stuff I will break it up into readable pieces hehehe.

The highlights:
Busy as a bee
Made some new HOT acquaintances,
Went for a greeaaat holiday (where some really memorable things took place)

Busy as a bee

Was based in the centre of the hustle bustle of KL city. It was relatively closer to home for me, nevertheless it took me approx the same time to get to the place and longer to get home. The work there was kinda routine and not too stressful. But it did keep me on my toes cos everything had to be done on the same day. On top of that it did give me an opportunity to meet a new group of people everyday. The best part of this was the amount of money I managed to save; food was provided 5 times a day, parking fees was half the amount I am used to paying and it was closer to home so less money spent on fuel since I don’t even bother going to my regular hang out places too. The downside of that – I packed on the pounds *sob *sob. Now I can’t reveal what work I was doing there as it is highly confidential so u can assume whatever you want. Nothing illegal though, mind you. =)

Now I’d like to justify my ‘busyness’. Been involved in 4 different projects with close sometimes overlapping deadlines, 2 different forms of training with actual work needing to be done. I rest my case. The busyness did me some good actually. Not only did I learn a helluva lot I got to really know my team and the diversity of each individual. I will not lie and say that I accepted everythg with open arms and mind. I bitched and griped and whined (to those close to me of course) but in the course of time I manage to learn about acceptance and adapting. So, it did me some form of good. I’m working on a few things now but after such a hectic month, these 2 weeks we have, seem like blissful joy before we are thrown into the sea of work again.

New HOT acquaintances

Met this cute, nice guy in a club, thanks to my dearest fren who insisted that i go talk with him. but me being the 'shy' person that i am just decides to steal glances and make eye-contact. So what do my beloved cousins do....one dances with me and the other goes and introduces herself. And haha the surprise was on her. the guy knew her. Apparently they studied together at the same Instituition but my dear fren completely forgot. So anyways , she decides to share her embarassment wiht me and brings the guy over. So we talk and exchange numbers. Then i find out he just joined this organisation where a close fren of mine works (the world gets smaller everytime). He doesn't know her (barely being there a week). We keep in touch for a bit after that first meeting, smses and calls. Seems like a decent guy so no harm in being frens. He invites me for drinks and lunches which i turn down, not on purpose but due to really not being able to make it. i invite him for drinks and he declines as well cos of family matters. But we do finally meet up for drinks one evening, "I'm with my very cute, single and available fren" he says. and i think to myself "yeah rite." i never trust guys who tell me they have a cute, single fren who's available. If he's so cute how can he be single AND available. So i walk into Chilli's feeling a little nervous as it was my first meeting with this guy after the nite at the club. By this time he is already acquainted with my fren who works in the same place as he. I find them in the corner and had to control myself from stopping short in my tracks. The guy was HOT, HOT, HOT! Damn! Really and truly. So i compose myself and and act like i didn't even notice a really gorgeous guy was rite before my eyes. I was kinda surprised with myself. I've never been taken away by guys this good-looking i usually think of them as being Obnoxious Adonis Men, narcissistic and annoying. But this guy, practically gave me goose bumps. Phew!

So i arrange a few meetings after that "as a group", went back to the club where i met Cute guy A and asked him to drag along Cute guy B. hehehe. Had a pretty good time, though both don't dance (Cute Guy B apparently only dances wen he's had too much to drink). But i was in bimbo mode all nite long. Bimbo mode meaning i was still getting goosebumps wen i look at Cute Guy B. It was so bad that i actually ditched the 2 people whom i love so much (u guys are reading this im sure hehehe). the next time around i meet them for drinks, i drag my faithful colleague S along this time. She behaves very well and pretends that I had never previously said anything about them. So Cute guy A sits with us while Cute Guy B is at the same place but was sitting elsewhere. Anyways, ladi ladi da, bimbo mode was switched on.

Hoilday

The next day, my darling 'cousins' and i left for the East Coast for the long-awaited, long-overdue holiday that we so rightly deserved. Ok, ok i won't be so dramatic. but the holiday was great. We took the coach to a city in the East coast. It was a pleasant journey. The 3 of us were seated in a row and chatted all the way to the town where i spent most of my secondary school days. Ah...the familiarity of it all. I felt a warm tingle run through me. Had this strange feeling of being home. The familiarity was overwhelming. I've been away only 3 years or so, but it felt like a part of me had been left behind sigh* it's true this time, i'm not being a drama queen. I quietened down as we reached the outskirts of the town, reminiscing and filling my cousins in on the memorable happenings along the way. so many of the places brought back all kinds of memories for me.

Anyways we reach the town and a fren comes and fetches us from the bus terminal, we were then invitied to lunch at his home, i know this guy and his family for the past 10 years so i wasn't uncomfortable. After a scrumptious home-cooked meal, we proceed to the hotel in which we were staying for the nite. We were kinda shocked at the size of the room, but we laughed about it. Imagin, 4 adults in a room meant for 2 with 4 sets of luggage. My 2 darling cousins packed as if they were goin on a holiday to Australia hehehe. everything but the kitchen sink, but it did come in handy as i needed sandals. I woke up with a hangover, had only about 2 and a half hours of sleep. Was kinda sloshed the nite before with Cute Guy A and S and her husband so i threw in a few things, couldnt find half of what i needed but was running late (with the cabbie blaring its horn) so just grabbed whatever i had and thought i'd make do.

But back to the room, we have a quick fix up and we leave to do a little shopping (last minute stuff). I left behind my swim suit (can you believe that!), goin for a holiday by the beach and u leave your swimming togs. So anyway deciding not to buy a new swim suit, i decide to get a pair of lycra shorts and pair it up with a tank top. I get these pair of tights which only cost about MYR 15 and think what the heck! so anyways that nite we take the river cruise to see the fireflies which my dearest cousin calls keling-kelings. it was a slip of the tongue cos its called kunang-kunang in Malay. 'Keling' is a derogatory term for the local Indians, equivalent to the term nigger. It was quite a nice ride. Our local priest joined us on the cruise along with some of his frens. After that we had dinner and went for a midnight show - Wild Hogs which i thought was pretty good. Oh btw i was having the sniffles and it was buggin me cos i was feeling sick. Couldnt really sleep that nite cos i could barely breathe and my darling cous was snoring into my ear. hehehe. I think i will continue in the next post. Gotta go. Will leave the suspense hanging.hehehe

Ladi Ladi Da

i know i've not posted anything since i left for Singapore. Tried to from my hotel room but unfortunately the connection was real slow and i just had enough time to check my emails and then hit the sack. So...Singapore was fun, had a real good time but it was not all play, we had to work and it was pretty challenging stuff. the first day was fun, we had team building activities and we laughed till we almost cried. we were so beat by the end of the day that we just went for a drink and hit the sack. the next day we had to prepare for many, many presentations. in fact the whole last 2 days were basically presentations and feedback.

Didn't do much shopping but im no shopaholic anyways and with the exchange rate...no thanks! i did get some stuff from the airport though, bought this special limited edition Absolut Vodka which was in a black bottle with the alcohol content at 50% (whoa Nelly!!). havent opened it yet. will save it for some special occasion.

I did meet up with G on Friday and him being Mr. Punctuality promised to arrive at 8pm which turned out to be 1130 pm. Thank God i followed my colleagues for dinner and drinks instead. We din go to far away from the hotel so it was convenient enough for me to run back in case he was on time (Yeah rite! like thats ever gonna happen =P) so anyways we go back to his sis' (Gr)place. remember i was hoping to surprise her but thanks to G who has a mouth as wide as the freakin Gaza strip spoiled the surprise. so the whole family was waiting for me to arrive and the worst part was her place was so close to the hotel whr i was staying.

so i chilled with them for a while and then his bro R (who loves to get on my case and has not changed over the past 10 yrs) wanted to go for a drink. So the 3 of us went to the nearby restaurant and had supper. Btw the food sux big time in this country. not that thrs anythg exotic but the replica of foods back home which i find here...horrible!! bland, no taste, no flavor blech!!!

we slept at 4am that day. Woke up the next day and took Gr's daughter for a kiddie play. she's quite entertaining this young one. talks a lot and is intelligent. Gr's baby boy is absolutely gorgeous. He is an angel. so sweet and adorable...sigh* ok this is freaking me out sounds like my maternal clock is ticking blech!!!

We lepaked (hung out) at Gr's kiddie gym the whole day and went to church. ok so it was more like i was forced to go to church. but i went to appease my godmother (G's mom). later at nite G, r and i went to Clark Quay for drinks, met up with my colleagues thr and just hung out. the next day had to go to church again and then G cooked for me - chicken sambal yummy! that was one of the most satisfying meals i had over thr. and in case ur wondering, yes i skipped vegetarian the few days that i was thr. now im back on the veggie boat! came home the next day was so beat. but had to fetch my mum and sis from my aunts place and drive home all the way. God i was so tired i couldnt kepe my eyes open but duty calls (and my family thinks im selfish!) the best part of this whole trip was an email i received on thursday nite. Remember my friend who was pissed off with me? well i was ready to end the whole thing and sent him an email the friday before leavin to Singapore to say so. but he sent me an email, in short he came back.... knew he couldnt stay long wihtout me hehehe....

So work is up to my ears and i thk i dont have a life anymore but other than that life's good!!! =)

Yippee yay!!!

Yay!I'm off to Singapore tomorrow. I'm actually goin for a development program and training. But i'm more excited about meeting some really good friends over there. She does not know i'm goin. i told her brother and he has made the necessary plans to make sure its a surprise. Just hope he doesn't JK as always....=)

but its not a holiday as i was hoping. its more work. but who cares!!! im gonna have fun. cant wait to go. i need the break...hopefully i get to update my blog when im over there. or else i can only get back to blogging next monday wen i get back to the office.

love to all...MUACKS!!!

I'm back!!!

it's been ages since i posted anything but have been up to my ears with work. Work just keeps pouring in. it's good in a way cos it takes my mind off all things depressing. having said that, i still don't like the idea of doing work which requires a lot of attention to detail. i'm a big picture person, conceptualising is one of my strengths. i hate the idea of going thru stacks of data, checking and re-checking minute stuff. it annoys me and it deadens my brain. i want to think, i mean really think. Give my opinions, share ideas, exchange thoughts. i find this more interesting but yet i am asked to do these crappy stuff. to say they dont know is not true cos, the whole office knows im not a detail-oriented person, by nature. so i am compared to another co-worker who likes this kind of shitty stuff. unfortunately for me, my whole team loves detail and are naturally inclined this way. The other big picture folk are in other teams, so sometimes i feel that they appreciate my work more than my own team. the worst part is they try to make me like themselves and it's 3 against 1. im judged unfairly by the work that i do which does nothing for my strengths but rather is a learning process towards improving my weaknesses. so...the story of my life. Gotta go. will continue later....trying to be optimistic here....=)

Sleepless in Kay-Hell (K.L.)!!!

i woke up today and thought "Oh God i need more sleep!!" i'm having trouble sleeping again. i go to bed exhausted, i close my eyes and wait for sleep to come but it only grazes me, sweeping gently across my being. i float in and out of slumberland hoping that i would go to the most secret corner of my soul where dreams are made (my subconscious mind), where my body is rested, preparing me for the next day. But i am interrupted by the sound of the tv in the living room, a child squealing downstairs aaarrrgh!!!!! i'm a lite sleeper and any little sound can keep me up all nite. God help me if i sleep next to a person who snores. That's why i welcome sleep wen i have too much to drink. i can sleep anywhere even with a snorer bellowing next to me. Yes, bellowing!!! =)

So back to yesterday, yes, i was exhausted but could not fall asleep, i mean i did sleep but it was not the deep sleep that makes you feel refreshed wen u awake. Instead, this kind of sleep makes you crave more sleep. i'm feeling a little light-headed from my sleep deprivation.so excuse me if i sound like a crazed person this morning.

I was asked to take sleeping pills by my co-workers. i think it's because wen i am sleep deprived i turn into a total bitch. Ok, ok a Mega bitch. i can't help it. Sue says it's like "dancing with death" wen i morph into a sleepless monster. Jokes aside, frens have given me meditation leaflets, relaxation and breathing techniques, yoga (ok its the same thing), chamomile tea bags, and wen all fails, a group of colleagues prayed for me =). THAT'S how bitchy i become, i need prayers. hehehe.

i went online yesterday trying to figure out something to do and came across one of these sites where you take an online test to gauge certain stuff about yourself. i was actually doing research on Emotional intelligence and you know one can get lost in the throes of information on the web. so i thought heck why not give it a shot. it was a depression test. Fine! i'm not depressed so why not.

So, bla, bla, bla.....

Did you have weeping spells in the last couple of weeks? uh...yes!,

Did you have images and thoughts of death or suicide in the last couple of weeks? uh...not suicide but death...yes!

Do you feel like you are not getting enough support from friends or family?

Do i feel like the whole world is against me? uh..yes!

Have you lost interest in activities or things that normally interest you? Hell yeah!!!

Then came the results....APPARENTLY i'm suffering from major depression. Yeah rite!!! hahaha.

But that does explain some of the stuff i've been experiencing. Bursting into tears for no apparent reason, venting my anger on the wrong people, highly irritable, insomnia, no interest in hanging out. i have to force myself to go out, and yet i don't want to go home. Lost excitement for anything....*sigh. AND it did last for about 2 weeks plus. There are good days and bad days though. Some days i don't give a flying f**k about anything then there are days wen the whole world is topsy turvy.

I think it's due to lack of sleep. Will have to go see the doctor sometime soon....*YAWN.....

Words of Wisdom

For those who read my blog knew that i was sad a couple of days ago. I thought i lost a close buddy and friend because of something i said. A colleague of mine sent me an email today and the content of it kinda tugged at something in me and gave me a good rap on the head.

IF A MAN WANTS YOU
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what
makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you
deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at
yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,

Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he
has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...

compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute
about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a
relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...

look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and
your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you
everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another
RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to
appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget
them.
BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN

I practiced some of these things, i tell some people the same things, i know most of these things, but until i read it, i didn't know i needed it!!!

To all the women out there, you deserve more than scum!! There are sweethearts out there, they just haven't found us yet!!

Drunken Mistresses!!!

It was suppose to be our weekly Friday nite out after work. Grab a beer, chill and just talk. But with the latest project taking so much of everyone's time, I packed up and left the office. On the way to fetch P, S calls and asks me to join them for a drink. So i told them to come to Bangsar as i was already making my way there. P changes her mind and decides to go home, she was feeling tired, or was it just a ploy to avoid meeting my colleagues?? Hmm....anyways, i drop her off at her place and go on to meet Sue and S. They were already there by the time i arrived and had ordered a pitcher of beer as it was still happy hour. I think we started at 7pm. Oh btw, my abstainance from ciggies lasted a whole day....wow!! ok i know, seems like my pride levels ahave gone down this year. Well at least i could manage something!!!

So we drink, and drink and drink. One thing i have to mention, i cannot drink beer as it causes me to pee a whole lot more (hey i have a small bladder!!) and i get terrible hangovers even if its just one glass. But for the sake of drinking, i drink and we order more beer. In fact it seems like our table is never empty....Then R (S's other half) joins us. i always enjoy R's company. He makes me laugh non stop(not that thats a hard thing to do). So we sit and discuss things like sex and penis sizes and Sue's friends. The conversations got juicier by the minute as more malt and hop got into our bloodstreams. R met a friend and brought her over to join our table. She was big and had tattoos on her back. Somehow she looked so familiar, but i just couldn't place her. so she comes and talks to us for a while and takes her leave after a while. Apparently she is an International School Teacher. hmmm....

At about 1 am. we realise that we are starving. So we order some nachos (which were fantastic btw) and we stuff our faces with the cheesy stuff. Sue even has a burger, and she doesn't eat. seriously!!By the time we decide to call it a nite, Sue was red in the face and i thought i was fine. the bill came up to 6oo bucks! Damn! R was buzy with his friends inside the bar and left S outside but i really had to leave. So i did and i only realised i was fucking sloshed wen i started driving.

There was a police roadblock around the corner and i forced myself to look okay and smile at the officer who smiled back and let me through. After that the journey was havoc, i can't remember anything. I have no idea how i got home that nite as i was literally driving with one eye on the road. I have this thing when i have too much to drink, i can fall asleep anywhere. So i was kinda worried about doing just that, falling asleep at the wheel. I finally reach my place and try to park the car. The mere thought of climbing up five flights of stairs caused me to feel nauseous. I threw open my car door and threw up. God i retched till my stomach burned... Then i decide to have 40 winks just to regain myself. The 40 winks turned into 4 hours and when i woke up, my engine was still running and i was almost out of fuel. But i felt better, so i dragged myself out of the car and back home. But for once in my life i was scared shitless.

The next day was hell....literally hell, i just wanted to die. The hangover was horrible, it took me 2 days to recover, i slept like a baby and awoke in time to feel like dying. S text-ed me and apparently she threw up too.

So we come into the office today and give each other knowing looks. the things we spoke about were really embarrassing. But they both cannot remember so good for me hehehe as there was some bitching goin on that nite. =)

Happyness

I watched this movie yesterday - The Pursuit of Happyness staring Will Smith and his biological son. It was a typical rags-to-riches film but with a twist. It starred Will Smith, Will Smith the funny man, Will Smith the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air". Well he's come a long way since then. So, i was watching this movie and it was pretty good. I mean yeah the plot was good, the acting was real and somehow the movie tugged at my heartstrings. I found myself tearing during some points of the movie. He does say something rather profound in this film. "Do we ever find true happiness? Or do we go through life always pursuing it?" or something to that effect.

How many of you know people who are really and truly happy? I mean sincerely happy and not those who pretend to be happy. Would you say that it's all in their head? i know someone who said that "no one is really happy, those who are, are just optimistic about life and all the crap it has to offer!!" I wouldn't make such remarks myself but what i do agree is that happiness is all in the head. If you want to be happy, u will be happy, if you want to find happiness then you will find it.

On the other hand, if you want to continue living a sad life, or misery is your best fren, then that is what you will reap. Look at it this way, you notice how the traffic is always heavier when you're late getting somewhere? Or how just when you think things cannot get any worse than they already something even more horrible takes place. So, am i wrong in saying that misery in itself loves company and those who seek it find it quite easily.

Having said that, im not saying that people cannot get sad, it would be preposterous to have people walking around all day with a grin plastered across their fugly faces as if they just downed a bottle of prozac. Grieve, mourn then pick yourself up and move on. With grieving comes healing.

Are we really happy individuals? Some say having more money would make them happy. But with more money comes more worries. You would think that with more money ones financial worries would be over. I know i would be happy with more money! i would link happiness to satisfaction. When you are satisfied with something it makes you feel good, and when you feel good you are almost always happy rite? I came across an article on the web, it says that happy images make depressed individuals sad! hmm.....could it be the bitterness of not experiencing the same feeling?

Anyways, happiness is a subjective matter so in the words of Sheryl Crow "If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad....."

Redemption!!

Its a brand new day....the hols have really done me some good. I feel like how i felt on the first day of the year...recharged, rejuvenated, motivation levels are high and i dont give a rat's ass about anything. So, today marks the start of Lent- Ash Wednesday, the month (or 40 days to be exact) when Christians, Catholics to be more specific, take a guilt trip of the year. It's a time when we look back at the past year and ask for forgiveness. Yeah rite! like that's gonna come easy. For me, it's just another excuse for me to feel good about myself. And i don't think i'm alone in this. All of us seek some sort of redemption once in a while and for us (Catholics) it comes in the form of Lent. So is this really what Lent means? If my Cathecism (Sunday school) teacher heard me say the above, i would be so doomed!! Lent is actually suppose to open a path to goodness, a time when we try to turn over a new leaf. After Lent we are supposed to continue being good...easier said than done. i usually give up eating meat during Lent. So far it has worked. Tried giving up ciggies last year, it lasted 2 weeks till the devil (in the form of a friend) blinded me and caused me to fall! Ok so i'll stop with the drama now. This year, i'm gonna be a 'vegetable' (insiders joke) and try to give up ciggies again. I think my self-control is controlled by my high level of pride. which in fact is something i should really start managing. The more i tell the people around me i dont do something or i dont like something, the more i am able to sustain my decisions, cos i dont want other people to think im weak by failing. Sort of like having to eat my own words. A friend of mine asked me to give up something that gives me pleasure; like sex....i would if i could but as far as my sex life is concerned, im already on the road to celibacy =( so it would be cheating to give up something u don't even have in the first place rite?

*sigh...so sad, so sad....
Also during Lent, we sing the most depressing songs in church. Why does it have to be so sad? I mean we are celebrating Christianity so shouldnt we be glad?

"Crucified, laid behind a stone....,
You lived to die, rejected and alone,
Like a rose, trampled on the ground....
You took the fall and thought of me
Above All...."

So here's to Lent - celibacy, become a herbivor and try to save my lungs while i can....

Btw another good thing that comes from Lent is i always lose weight lets hope this year is the same. hehehe

Cheers

I can see clearly now!!!

The rain is gone!!! I think laughter really is the best medicine. After laughing my lungs out yesterday, I feel relatively good. (Excuse me if I sound a bit poetic this morning). The fuzziness has kinda left my head and everything seems clear. I know what I want to do next, and i don't feel so lost. it also helps to know that I am surrounded by people who 'lau' me for the bitch I am =P.

So whr did this sudden change of emotion come from. Yesterday was Valentine's Day or a.k.a Singles Awareness Day (S.A.D.). It's the time of the year when cheating bastards, workaholic spouses and married couples try to bribe their way into the lives of their other halves ;) For those who are celebrating SAD its a whole different story. We bitch and gripe about other people who actually fall into the traps of commercialism.

Cards (written by other hopeless romantics)
Flowers (which die within 3 days)
Chocolates (which go straight to your arse),
Wine (so he can get some action)

....need I say more?

So anyways, a few of my colleagues and I decide to spend Vals/SAD with each other. We leave the office around 5.30-ish, I pick up my baby (my car) from the workshop and we go to S's place. We ordered pizza and started on the drinks. Then we decide to play "Taboo". Everyone was cracking up and it was extremely fun. I laughed until I almost cried, the alcohol also had something to do with itlah of course. By the time we left, we were all still euphoric. Good combination Drinks + Laughter = Euphoria!!! ;P

Shoite!!!

God, everything is a friggin mess!!!! I feel like eveythg has turned upside down. Work is kinda taking its toll on me, my life is sooooo f**king messed up!!! I feel like shit....Today and the past few days have been no good. To make things worse, my car has a life of its own.
The damn thing is not even a year old and its been to the workshop 3 times. luckily its still under the warranty. I owe everyone around me an apology. Have been so bitchy these past few days. Don't know how people could actually stand me. A very dear friend is also pissed with me, thanks to my fucking big mouth, I said some pretty hurtful things to him and his reply hurt even more. So will this be the end of our friendship? I hope not, i don't knw what i will do without him, seriously....

Par-tay!!!!

Had great fun last Saturday nite. It was a colleague's birthday so a few of us decided to take her partying. Had to come in to work on Saturday morning. Finished around 12 something. Lunch ended about 3.45pm. Then went to visit my aunties. Left their place at 7pm. Reached home around 8pm. Was contemplating staying at home. But decided to go. Was at Bar Savannh at 9.40pm. Earliest ever been to a club. So....Sue was already there. She was the first to arrive. A and I show up at the same time. As usual I din know how to get there so he had to wait for me somewhere nearby. We ordered a drink and waited. The b'day gal was having car trouble hehehe. If you've seen her car...you'll understand why. It's funky in a way, but I'm sure it would qualify for Pimp My Ride =) Anyways the rest of the gang arrives and among them are my boss and his girlfriend. I have a lot of respect for my boss so I don't smoke in front of him or the other senior associates. But no thanks to Sue....who dared and sabotaged me into smoking in front of him....I finally did and he goes "There are some of us who have hidden habits which the rest of us don't know about" and he has this smirk on his face. Sue goes on to say "Yeah wen she found out you were coming she said 'Oh no now I can't smoke!' " Ha ha
So anyways we hang around some more. Have a few drinks.....then the b'day gal makes a grand entrance with her other half. We were told that we would have to purchase 2 bottles of liquor upfront before entering the club for a crowd of our size; 15 pax to be exact. Sue somehow manages to weedle us into the club (by being nice to the owner) and we got someone else's place hahaha. So we go in, dance, drink, dance, drink and dance some more. There were absolutely no guys who caught my attention. It was quite disappointing as the young un's were hoping to at least flirt with cute, good-looking guys. God the place was turning into Bangsar. There were machas from god knows where and overall it was just disappointing. But we did have fun altogether. Sue, the b'day gal and I were busy bitching away hehehe.